Here I am, in next 20 days, I am turning 25. The fear of turning old has never occurred to me until recently. World runs on equations is what I believe. These thoughts of aging without finding the meaning of life has made me question my priorities in life. Does life has no purpose or those who figured out what they want, are just convinced by their whims. I used to be a normal person, wanting to be loved, throwing emotions before reason for my pseudo happiness, enjoying every moment. Things changed. After understanding the equations of love, I threw the thought of unconventional love and soul mates to gutter. Now, all I want to do is to just go and explore every concept, find out the latent purpose of life, the equation which is holding this universe and soul together. I am not a believer of soul, just referring to it as its abstract. Its something I just refer to life which ofcourse can be given a boolean value and I cant agree to that. I know many people are in similar mind state, questioning the essence of life, detached from the physical and mental pleasures. I am thirsty to know whats going on. I am starting my journey here..